Ana frankis dRiuri

rac dro gadis, sul ufro damoukidebeli vxdebi mSoblebisagan, miuxedavad imisa, rom axalgazrda var, simxneve ar maklia da ufro swori warmodgena maqvs samarTlianobaze, vidre dedaCems. vici, ra minda, maqvs mizani, sakuTari azri, rwmena da siyvaruli. momeciT saSualeba, viyo iseTi, rogoric var da bednierebisaTvis meti araferi minda. me vici, rom qali var, Sinaganad Zlieri da mamaci.

Tu RmerTma cocxali damtova, gacilebiT mets gavakeTeb, vidre dedaCems odesme gaukeTebia. me ar davrCebi SeumCneveli, me farTo asparezze gaval, xalxisTvis viSromeb.

axla me vici, rom cxovrebaSi umTavresia simamace da sicocxlisadmi trfiali.

ana
paraskevi, 14 aprili, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

CvenTan jer kidev daZabuli mdgomareobaa. pimi Tavs Zlivs ikavebs. qalbatoni van daani gaciebulia, loginSi wevs, imanWeba da Wirveulobs. misma qmarma feri dakarga, radgan gamamxnevebeli sigaretebi ara aqvs. dusels myudro kuTxe waarTves da gauTaveblad buzRunebs.

yvelaferi moiSala; sapirfareSodan wyali wveTavs, onkanis xraxni gacvda. sabednierod, nacnobebis wyalobiT, erTsac da meoresac male SeakeTeben.

Tavad vici, rom zogjer zedmetad mgrZnobiare var, magram... zogjer mizezic arsebobs amisaTvis. roca me da peteri erTmaneTs mikrulni, xelgadaxveulni vsxedvarT xis magar yuTze, roca igi Cems kululebs eTamaSeba, roca gareT Citebi WikWikeben, roca vxedav, rogor imoseba xeebi mwvaniT, roca mze gareT mixmobs, xolo haeri laJvardovani da gamWvirvalea, o, maSin bevri ram minda!

TavSesafarSi ki Cems irgvliv mxolod pirquSi da ukmayofilo adamianebia. ismis oxvra, Civili, TiTqos uecrad Cveni mdgomareoba mniSvnelovnad gauaresda. magram Tu vinme cudad grZnobs Tavs, amaSi TviTonvea damnaSave. TavSesafarSi misabaZ magaliTs aravin iZleva, aq yvelam TviTon unda mouaros sakuTar ganwyobilebas: `o, netav Cqara gaTavdebodes yvelaferi!~ mesmis yoveldRe.

me Cemi samuSao, imedi, siyvaruli da simamace mSvelis. yovelive amas kmayofileba da bedniereba moaqvs CemTvis.

magram ici ra, kiwi! dRes cotas `vurev~ da ar vici, ratom. RmerTma uwyis, ra davwere, araviTari kavSiri ar igrZnoba. zogjer arc is mjera, rom Cemi najRabni odesme vinmes daainteresebs.

`ugunuri batis Wukis aRsareba~, ase daarqmeven mTel am sisuleles. batonebi bolkenstaini da gerbrandi¹ (¹ holandiuri gamomcemlebis gvarebia.) bevrs verafers ipovnian Cems dRiurSi.

ana
SabaTi, 15 aprili, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

erT aurzaurs meore mohyva. netav, rodis moeReba bolo yovelive amas, ekiTxeba sakuTar Tavs TiToeuli Cvengani. warmoidgine, ra moxda. peters daaviwyda, gamoeZro urduli, romelsac yovel Rame Semosasvlel kars vadebT, meore karis gasaRebi ki moSlilia. amitom kraleri da muSebi kontoraSi ver Semovidnen. kralerma mezobeli Seawuxa, iqidan fanjara Semoamtvria da ase Semovida saxlSi. Cveni keTilismyofeli gacofebulia, aseTi sisulele rogor mogividaTo. unda giTxra, rom peters am bolo dros TavdaWerilobam umtyuna. sadilad rom visxediT, dedam uTxra, mecodebio da peteri kinaRam atirda. saerTod, yvelani varT damnaSave. Cveulebriv, mamakacebi yoveldRe ekiTxebodnen, gamoaZro Tu ara urduli, magram amjerad yvelas daaviwyda. iqneb mere rogorme vanugeSo, guliT minda davexmaro. axla mogiyvebi, kidev ra moxda am bolo dros TavSesafarSi...

erTi kviris win mofi uecrad avad gaxda. sruliad miknavebuli iyo, TrToda. mipis bevri ar ufiqria, kata TavsafarSi gaaxvia, CanTaSi Caisva da veterinarul klinikaSi waiyvana. eqimma raRac wamali misca, etyoba, mofis muceli stkioda. mas Semdeg mofi Zneli sanaxavia. dRe da Rame sadRac daeTreva, albaT, Tavis SeyvarebulTan.

sxvenis fanjaras axla RamiT Ria toveben. me da peteri xSirad vsxedvarT am fanjarasTan.

koophiosis da cotaodeni zeTis saRebavis daxmarebiT sapirfareSo kvlav wesrigSi moviyvaneT. xraxngacveTili onkani axliT Secvales. am TveSi rva sasursaTo baraTi SeviZineT. Cveni sasusnavi amjerad pikulia. Tu bedma gvimtyuna, qilaSi mxolod ramdenime kitri aRmoCndeba mdogvis sawebliT. bostneuli sruliad aRara gvaqvs, mxolod salaTa da salaTa. axla Cveni sakvebi kartofilia surogatebisagan damzadebuli sawebliT.

qalaqs xangrZlivad da Tanac xSirad bombaven.

haagaSi yumbara ratuSas daeca da bevri dokumenti daiwva. holandielebma axali pasporti unda miiRon. dReisTvis kmara!

ane
kvira dila, TerTmeti sruldeba,

16 aprili, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

guSindeli dRe arasodes ar damaviwydeba, radgan Cems cxovrebaSi yvelaze mniSvnelovani ram moxda, gana yvela qaliSvilisaTvis didi mniSvneloba ara aqvs im dRes, roca pirvelad akoceben! hoda CemTvisac asea. saTvalavSi ar miiReba is SemTxveva, roca bramma marjvena loyaze makoca da arc mister uokeris xelze kocna. momismine, minda giambo, rogor makoces pirvelad.

guSin saRamos, saaTis rvaze, me da peteri taxtze visxediT. uecrad mxrebze xeli momxvia.

— cota CaviwioT, — vuTxari me, — Torem yovelTvis TaviT yuTs vejaxebi!

peterma Caiwia, ramdenic ki SeiZleboda, me mklavqveS xeli gavuyare da mivekari. man kidev ufro magrad momxvia xeli. Cven adrec xSirad vmsxdarvarT erTmaneTis gverdiT, magram ise axlos, rogorc am saRamos, arasodes. peterma ise magrad mimikra mkerdze, rom guli amiCqrolda. rac dro gadioda, miT ufro kargad vgrZnobdi Tavs. peteri sul ufro magrad mikravda gulSi da bolos Cemi Tavi mis mxarze aRmoCnda, misi ki Cemsaze. xuTiode wuTis Semdeg isev gavswordi, magram man swrafad momkida orive xeli Tavze da kvlav mimizida. o, ra kargi, ra SesaniSnavi grZnoba mqonda, xmis amoReba ar SemeZlo, mxolod am wuTebiT vtkbebodi. peterma rogorRac uxerxulad momisva xeli loyaze, mklavze, eTamaSeboda Cems kululebs. erTmaneTs mikrulni adgilidan ar viZrodiT.

kiwi, me ar SemiZlia agiwero is grZnoba, romelic dameufla. araCveulebrivad bednieri viyavi, me mgoni iseTive grZnoba hqonda masac. cxris naxevarze wamovdeqiT da peterma savarjiSo fexsacmeli Caicva. saxli unda daeTvalierebina, da amitom sul Cumad unda evlo. me mis gverdiT videqi. Tavad ar vici, rogor moxda. magram sanam qveviT CavidodiT, peterma loyaze makoca, sadRac marcxena loyasa da yurs Soris. me ise Cavirbine kibe, rom ukan arc ki momixedavs da... mouTmenlad veli dRevandel saRamos.

ana
orSabaTi, 17 aprili, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

rogor fiqrob, moewoneba dedas da mamas, rom biWebTan erTad taxtze vzivar da vikocnebiT, miT umetes, biWi ukve Cvidmeti wlisaa, me ki TxuTmetisac ara var jer? Cemi azriT, dasaZraxi amaSi araferia, aq mxolod sakuTari Tavis imediT unda viyo. me ise mSvidad, ise saimedod vgrZnob Tavs, roca mis mklavebSi vocnebob, rom sunTqva mekvris. saSinlad vRelav, roca loyaze mis loyas vgrZnob. ra kargia, roca ici, rom viRac gelodeba!

magram am ambavSi marTlac bevria `magram~. dajerdeba ki peteri yovelive amas? marTalia, me ar damviwyebia misi dapireba, magram peteri mainc vaJia!

me kargad mesmis, rom yovelive es CemTvis naadrevia. TxuTmeti wlis mxolod axla vxdebi da uecrad aseTi damokidebuleba. me TiTqmis darwmunebuli var, rom margo arasodes ar akocninebda vaJs, sanam daniSvnaze an qorwilze ar Camovardeboda laparaki. me da peters ki aseTi gegmebi ara gvaqvs. me mgoni, arc dedas ar ukocnia aravisTvis, sanam mamas gahyveboda... ras ityodnen Cemi megobari gogonebi, rom gaigon, rogor viweqi peteris mklavebSi, rogor scemda Cemi guli mis mkerdze, rogor medo Tavi mis mxarze, mas ki Cemsaze?

ah, ana rogor ar grcxvenia, magram marTali rom giTxra, sasircxvilos me verafers vxedav amaSi. Cven aq Caketilebi varT, mowyvetilni mTel samyaros, mudam SiSsa da avis molodinSi, gansakuTrebiT am bolo dros. ratomRa unda gavurbodeT erTmaneTs, Tu erTmaneTi gviyvars? ratom unda vicadoT manamde, sanam gavizrdebiT? ratom unda gvawuxebdes amdeni kiTxvebi?

me Tavad vikisre yvelaferi da me vageb pasuxs. igi arasodes ar momayenebs tkivils, ar gamaubedurebs. da Tu asea, ratom ar unda moviqce ise, rogorc guli mikarnaxebs, rom orive bednieri viyoT. miuxedavad amisa, Sen albaT amCnev, kiwi, rogor vmeryeob. etyoba, Cemi Tandayolili patiosneba ver egueba aseT kekemalulobas. rogor fiqrob, valdebuli var Tu ara, yvelaferi vuambo mamas? rogor migaCnia, SeiZleba Cveni saidumloeba vandoT mesame pirs? maSin xom Cveni nazi urTierToba gaqreba. gana aseTi gandoba sulierad ufro metad damamSvidebs. unda movelaparako `mas~.

diax, bevri ram maqvs salaparako `masTan~, radgan marto alerss araviTari azri ara aqvs. saWiroa meti ndoba, yvelafris gaziareba, xolo imis Segneba, rom erTmaneTs vendobiT, kidev ufro Zliers gagvxdis!

ana
samSabaTi, 18 aprili, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

yvelaferi rigzea. es wuTia, mamam gviTxra, rom oci maisisaTvis mniSvnelovani operaciebia mosalodneli rogorc ruseTSi, aseve italiaSic da dasavleTSic. rac ufro didxans vsxedvarT aq, miT ufro warmoudgenlad mimaCnia Cveni ganTavisufleba. rogorc iqna, guSin me da peters Soris gaimarTa saubari, romelsac ager aTi dRea ver movabiT Tavi. me mas Cveni, qaliSvilebis, mTeli saidumloeba gavumxile da ar momridebia Sevxebodi yvelaze intimur sakiTxebs. saRamo ormxrivi kocniT damTavrda, TiTqmis tuCebSi. es marTlac SesaniSnavi grZnobaa.

iqneb rodisme avitano zeviT Cemi wignaki, romelSic Cawerili maqvs yvelaferi, rac momwons da orive erTad ufro Rrmad CavwvdebiT brZnul azrebs. me ar makmayofilebs marto xvevna. Zalian minda, isic CemsaviT fiqrobdes.

zamTris cvalebadi amindebis Semdeg mSvenieri gazafxuli dadga. aprili marTlac didebulia, arc Zalian cxela da arc Zalian civa, xandaxan wvima cris. Cveni wabli TiTqmis sul gamwvanda, — aqa-iq ukve gamoCnda patara sanTlebi. SabaTs elim didad gagvaxara. mogvitana yvavilebi, nargizebis sami kona da CemTvis SesaniSnavi cisferi hiacintebi.

naxvamdis, kiwi, algebras unda Cavujde.

ana
oTxSabaTi, 19 aprili, 1944

Zvirfaso megobaro!

(ase hqvia erT films dorit kreiseris, ida viustisa da harald paulsenis monawileobiT).

ra SeiZleba iyos amaze uaresi, roca Ria fanjridan gascqeri bunebas, gesmis Citebis galoba, grZnob loyaze mzis sxivebs da sayvarel ymawvilTan xelgadaxveuli, mikruli, gasusuli dgaxar. ara mgonia, amgvari siaxlove cudi iyos, radgan aseT dros siCume kargad moqmedebs Cemze. o, netav aravin gviSlides xels, muSic ki ara!

ana
paraskevi, 21 aprili, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

guSin dRis meore naxevarSi viweqi, yeli mtkioda. wola pirvel dResve saSinlad mombezrda da, radgan sicxe mqonda, avdeqi. dRes mis udidebulesobas iorkis taxtis memkvidres, mefis asuls elisabeds, 18 weli Seusrulda. bi-bi-sim gadmosca, rom igi jer ar gamoecxadebinaT srulwlovanad, rogorc es saerTod miRebulia samefo ojaxSi. Cven sul imis fiqrSi varT, Tu romel ufliswuls gahyveba colad es mzeTunaxavi, magram Sesaferisi veravin aRmovuCineT. SeiZleba misi da, mefis asuli margaret-roz, momavalSi belgiis ufliswuls boduens gahyves colad.

CvenTan ki ubedurebas ubedureba mosdevs. es esaa, Semosasvleli kari SevakeTeT, magram axla sawyobis muSa gamotyvra. rogorc Cans, kartofilis fqvils iparavda da cdilobs yvelaferi elis gadaabralos. cxadia, mTeli TavSesafari Relavs. eli sibrazisagan gaafTrebulia.

minda Cemi zRapari romelime Jurnals gavugzavno. iqneb dabeWdon. cxadia, fsevdonimiT.

naxvamds, darling!¹. (¹ Zvirfaso (ingl.).)

ana
samSabaTi, 25 aprili, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

aTi dRea, rac duseli van daans ar elaparakeba da mxolod imitom, rom sawyobis karis gatexis Semdeg sifrTxilis mizniT rigi axali RonisZiebebi gamoimuSaves, rac dusels xels ar aZlevs. igi gvarwmunebs, van daanma miyvirao.

`aq yvelaferi Cum-Cumad keTdeba~, miTxra man, `mamaSens unda movelaparako~. dusels aukrZales SabaTs nasadilevs da kviraobiT qveviT kontoraSi jdoma, magram mainc Cavida. van daani gacofda. mama duselTan mosalaparakeblad wavida. cxadia, Tavis gasamarTleblad duseli raRacas mied-moedo, magram amjerad mamasTanac ki araferi gauvida. axla mamac aRar elaparakeba, radgan duselma awyenina. Cven ar viciT, ra uTxra, albaT rame Zalian cudi.

davwere SesaniSnavi moTxroba. davarqvi `bleri, samyaros aRmomCeni~. Cem sam msmenels moTxroba Zalian moewona.

ise saSinlad var gaciebuli. surdo margos, mamas da dedasac gadavde, peteri mainc gadaurCes! undoda ekocna CemTvis da `eldorado~ miwoda. ara, Cemo kargo, araferi gamova! da mainc ra kargia!

ana
xuTSabaTi, 27 aprili, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

qalbatoni van daani dilidanve cud gunebazea, xan gacivebas uCivis, xan wveTebi ara maqvs, xan cxviris moxocva mombezrdao. dausruleblad wuwunebs: mze ar anaTebs, jarebis gadmosxmas agvianeben, fanjaraSi gaxedva ar SeiZleba da a. S. da a. S. misma Wirveulobam bevri gvacina da, radgan yvelaferi arc ise cudadaa, isic agvyva.

vkiTxulob `karlos mexuTes~. wignis avtoria gioTingenis universitetis profesori. 40 weli umuSavia am wignze. xuT dReSi mxolod 50 gverdi wavikiTxe. metis wakiTxva SeuZlebelia. wigni 594- gverdiania da axla iangariSe, ramden xans movundebi mis wakiTxvas. nu dagaviwydeba, meore nawilic aqvs... magram es kia, rom Zalze sainteresoa!

moswavlis saqmianoba araferia imasTan SedarebiT, rasac me erT dReSi vakeTeb. jer holandiuridan inglisurad vTargmne nawyveti nelsonis ukanaskneli brZolidan, Semdeg Cavujeqi CrdiloeTis oms (1700—1721), axla petre didi, karlos XII, avgust Zlevamosili, stanislav leCinski, mazepa, brandenburgi, zemo pomerania, qvemo pomerania, dania saTanado qronologiiTurT. amis Semdeg gadavedi braziliaSi, gavecani Tambaqos plantaciebs, yavis Warb warmoebas, rio-de-Janeiros milionnaxevriani mosaxleobiT, pernambukos da san-paulos, aRarafers vambob mdinare amazonze. wavikiTxe zangebis, TeTrkanianebis, mulatebis, metisebis Sesaxeb, gavige, rom mosaxleobs 50% wera-kiTxvis ucodinaria da am qveyanaSi malaria mZvinvarebs. radgan cota dro kidev damrCa, Tvali gadavavle erTi samefo ojaxis genealogias: daviwye ian ufrosiT, Semdeg mohyva vilhelm ludvigi, ernst kazimiri, hainrix kazimir I-li da movedi patara margareT-franciskamde (daibada 1943 wels otavaSi).

12 saaTia: mecadineobas sxvenze ganvagrZob. pirvel saaTamde vswavlob religiis istorias... brrr!

or saaTze sabralo bavSvi isev samuSaos Caujda (hm, hm). axla viwrocxviriani da farTocxviriani maimunebis jeria. aba, kiwi, miTxari swrafad, ramdeni TiTi aqvs hipopotams. maimunebis Semdeg vkiTxulob biblias: noes kidobani, semi, qami, iafeti, mere isev karlos mexuTe. amis Semdeg peterTan erTad inglisurs vswavlob: vkiTxulobT Tekereis `polkovniks~. peters gamovkiTxe franguli vokabulebi da misisipisa da misuris SedarebiT daxasiaTebaze vimsjeleT.

dReisaTvis kmara, adieu!¹. (¹ mSvidobiT (frang.).)

ana
paraskevi, 28 aprili, 1944.

Zvirfaso kiwi!

arasodes ar damaviwydeba sizmari peter veselze. sakmarisia, gavixseno da isev vgrZnob misi loyis Sexebas, isev mipyrobs didebuli gancda. aseTi ram aqaur peterTanac ganmicdia, magram iseTi siZlieriT arasodes, — da ai... guSin saRamos kvlav erTad visxediT taxtze xelgadaxveulebi. uecrad uwindeli ana sadRac gaqra da misi daikava. meore anam, romelic arc mxiarulia da arc didgula, mxolod siyvaruli da alersi unda.

vijeqi mis gverdiT, magrad vekvrodi da vgrZnobdi, rogor mevseboda guli. Tvalze cremli momadga, saxeze Camomigorda da mis kurtaks daeca. ar vici, SeamCnia man es Tu ara. ubralo moZraobiTac ki ar gaucia Tavisi Tavi. netav isic Tu imas grZnobs, rasac me? sityva ar dauZravs. icis Tu ara, rom gverdiT ori ane uzis. ramdeni kiTxvebia, pasuxi ki ar Cans!

cxris naxevarze wamovdeqi da mivedi fanjarasTan, sadac Cveulebriv vemSvidobebiT erTmaneTs. me jer kidev vcaxcaxebdi, jer kidev meore ane viyavi, peteri momiaxlovda. me kiserze xelebi movxvie da marcxena loyaze vakoce, xolo roca marjvenaze vapirebdi kocnas, Cemi tuCebi mis tuCebs Sexvda. mivewebeT erTmaneTs tuCebiT, kidev erTxel, kidev erTxel, dausruleblad!

rogor sWirdeba peters alersi! is mxolod axla mixvda, ra aris qaliSvili, mxolod axla dainaxa rom am `qajebsac~ aqvT guli da roca maTTan marto xar, sul sxvanairni arian. cxovrebaSi man pirvelad gaimeta megobris grZnoba, sakuTari Tavi. aqamde mas arc vaJi hyolia megobari da arc qali. axla Cven erTmaneTi vipoveT. arc me vicnobdi mas. mec ar myolia Seyvarebuli, axla ki myavs.

mawuxebs erTi kiTxva! gana kargia, rom ase mivende, rom iseve savse var vnebiT da ndomiT, rogorc peteri? me qali var da aseTi TavSeukavebloba ar Semferis. am kiTxvaze mxolod erTi pasuxi arsebobs: `me didxans mRrRnida sevda, didxans viyavi marto da uecrad nugeSi da sixaruli vipove!~ diliT iseTebi varT, rogorc yovelTvis, dRisiTac, magram saRamos verafriT dagviokebia erTmaneTisaken ltolva. ar SeiZleba ar ifiqro im netarebasa da bednierebaze, romelic yovel Sexvedras moaqvs. saRamos mxolod erTmaneTs vekuTvniT. yovel saRamos, gamosaTxovari kocnis Semdeg, minda gaviqce, aRar vuyuro TvalebSi, gaviqce Sors, Sors, sruliad marto davrCe bnelSi!

magram sakmarisia, 14 safexuriT dabla Camovide da sul sxva garemoa: gakaSkaSebuli oTaxi, sadac laparakoben, icinian, raRacas mekiTxebian da me ise unda vupasuxo, rom verafers mixvdnen. guli jer kidev savse maqvs da ar SemiZlia erTbaSad daviviwyo is gancda, romelic guSin saRamos dameufla. nazi, damyoli ane iSviaTi movlenaa, magram miT ufro Znelia misi gareT gagdeba. peteri ise Rrmad SemoiWra CemSi, rogorc aqamde aravin, mxolod sizmarSi ganvicade erTxel aseTi ram. peterma mTlianad damipyro da Cemi suli erTianad aaforiaqa. cxadia, amgvari gancdebis Semdeg adamiani unda damSviddes raTa Sinagani wonasworoba aRadginos. o, peter, ra miyavi? ra ginda Cemgan? ra iqneba Semdeg? o, axla ki mesmis elis eWvebi, mesmis, radgan Tavad ganvicdi yvelafers. ufro didi rom viyo da peters Cemi SerTva undodes, netav ras vetyodi? ane aRiare patiosnad! Sen mas colad ar gayvebodi, magram verc advilad moSordebodi! peteris xasiaTi jer Camouyalibebelia, aklia energia, vaJkacoba, Zala, is jer bavSvia da gonebiTac ar dgas Cemze maRla. yvelaferze metad simSvidisa da bednierebisaken iswrafvis.

nuTu me mxolod ToTxmeti wlisa var? nuTu jer kidev suleli bavSvi var, moswavle? nuTu sruliad gamoucdeli var yvelaferSi. magram me mainc meti gamocdileba maqvs, vidre sxvebs, radgan me iseTi ram ganvicade, rac TiTqmis aravis ganucdia Cems asakSi. meSinia sakuTari Tavis. meSinia, rom male avyvebi vnebas da Tu es moxda, rogorRa moviqce momavalSi sxva ymawvilebTan? ra Znelia yovelive es, guli da goneba mudam erTmaneTs ebrZvis. yvelafers Tavisi dro aqvs, magram var ki darwmunebuli imaSi, rom swored SevarCie dro?

ana
samSabaTi, 2 maisi, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

SabaT saRamos peters vkiTxe, rogor fiqrobs, xom ar unda vuambo yvelaferi mamas. peteri odnav SeiSmuSna, magram mainc miTxra, saWiroao. me gamexarda. es misi Sinagani siwmindis kidev erTi damamtkicebeli sabuTia. rogorc ki qveviT Cavedi, mamas wylis mosatanad wavyevi da kibeze vuTxari:

— mama, Sen cxadia, xvdebi, roca me da peteri erTad varT, erTi metris daSorebiT ar vsxedvarT erTmaneTisagan. rogor ggonia, es cudia?

mamam maSinve ar mipasuxa, mere ki Tqva:

— ara, ana, es cudi araa, magram am viwro sivrceSi frTxilad unda iyo...

man kidev Tqva raRac amdagvari, magram amasobaSi zeviT avediT. kvira diliT Tavad damiZaxa da miTxra:

— ane, me kidev erTxel Cavufiqrdi yovelive amas — (me SiSma Semipyro), — da mivedi im daskvnamde, rom aq TavSesafarSi, es ar ivargebs! me megona, Sen da peteri mxolod amxanagebi iyaviT. peters uyvarxar?

— arc ufiqria amaze, — vupasuxe me.

— ai, ra, ana, Sen ici, rom me Zalian kargad mesmis Tqveni, magram mainc TavSekaveba gmarTebs, zedmetad nu gaaTamameb. nu adixar ase xSirad zeviT. amgvar ambebSi kaci ufro aqtiuria, qals meti TavSekavebis unari aqvs. gareT sul sxvagvari viTarebaa, Tavisuflad cxovrob, sxva ymawvilebsa da gogonebs xvdebi, SegiZlia sadme waxvide, gitacebs sporti da vin moTvlis, kidev ra. magram Tu Tqven aq xSirad iqnebiT erTad, Semdeg ki guli agicruvdeba, maSin yvelaferi bevrad ufro garTuldeba. Tqven xom isedac yoveldRe xedavT erTmaneTs, frTxilad iyavi, ana, nu miitan am ambavs gulTan axlos.

— me arc mimaqvs, mama. garda amisa, peteri Zalze wesieri da kargi ymawvilia.

— marTalia, magram susti nebisyofisaa da advilad eqceva rogorc kargi, aseve cudi gavlenis qveS. imedi maqvs, rom bolomde kargi darCeba, radgan ZiriTadad mainc wesieri adamiania.

Cven kidev bevri vilaparakeT da SevTanxmdiT, rom mama petersac moelaparakeboda. kviras nasadilevs zeviT viyavi da peterma mkiTxa:

— elaparake mamas, ana?

— velaparake da Senc gadmogcem yvelafers, — vupasuxe me. am ambavSi igi cuds arafers xedavs, magram misi azriT, aq, am siviwroveSi SeiZleba advilad, waveCxuboT erTmaneTs.

— ki magram, Cven xom SevTanxmdiT, ar viCxuboT. me mtkiced maqvs gadawyvetili, rom asec iqneba.

— mec, peter, magram mama fiqrobs, rom aq yvelaferi sxvanairadaa, rom Cven mxolod amxanagebi varT. Seni azriT, Cven ukve aRar SegviZlia viyoT amxanagebi?

— me mgoni SegviZlia, Sen rogor fiqrob?

— mec ase mgonia. mamas vuTxari, rom Sen savsebiT gendobi. marTlac gendobi, peter, gendobi mTlianad, iseve, rogorc mamas. me mimaCnia, rom Sen ndobis Rirsi xar, xom asea?

— imedi maqvs (igi gawiTlda da daibna).

— me mjera Seni, mjera, rom kargi xar da cxovrebaSi bevrs miaRwev.

Cven kidev bevr sakiTxs SevexeT da bolos me vTqvi:

— roca aqedan gavalT, albaT, CemTvis aRar Seiwuxeb Tavs.

igi aenTo: — ara, ane, ara, marTals ar ambob! aseTi ram arasodes ar unda ifiqro Cemze!

am dros damiZaxes...

orSabaTs peterma miTxra, rom mama masac elaparaka.

— mamaSens miaCnia, rom amxanaguri grZnoba SeiZleba siyvarulSi gadaizardos, magram me vuTxari, rom Tavisuflad SeuZlia gvendos.

axla mama Txoulobs, rom vuklo zeviT siaruls, magram me ase ar minda, marto imitom ki ara, rom peterTan yofna msiamovnebs, aramed, imis gamoc, rom mamas vuTxari, peters yvelaferSi vendobi-meTqi. diax, me mas vendobi da minda es davumtkico kidec. rogorRa davumtkiceb, Tu undoblobis gamo qveviT vijdebi.

ara, mainc vivli zeviT!
amasobaSi duselis dramac damTavrda. SabaTs saRamos sufraze man holandiur enaze winaswar momzadebuli, mSvenieri sabodiSo sityva warmoTqva. van daans maSinve moubrunda guli. etyoba duseli mTeli dRe swavlobda am `gakveTils~. kviras misi dabadebis dRe iyo da mSvidad Caiara. Cven vaCuqeT 1919 wels Camosxmuli erTi boTli Rvino, van daanebma (axla maT ukve SeeZloT rame mierTmiaT misTvis) erTi qila pikuli da samarTebeli, kralerma moutana limonis jemi, mipma — wigni, elim — qoTniani yvavili. is ki yvelas TiTo kvercxiT gagvimaspinZlda.

ana
oTxSabaTi, 3 maisi, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

jer is axali ambebi, rac am kviraSi moxda. politikur sferoSi ardadegebia, araferia axali, sruliad araferi, magram axla ki mjera, rom jarebs gadmosxamen. yvelaferi rusebs xom ar unda gaakeTebinon. Tumca axla imaTTanac araferi xdeba.

batoni koophoisi ukve yoveldRe dadis kontoraSi. peters taxtisaTvis axali zambarebi uSova da amitom peterma avejis gadamkvrelis roli unda ikisros, rac maincdamainc ar exaliseba. koophoisma mogvitana rwyilebis mosaspobi fxvnilic. ho, marTla, SenTvis ar miambnia, rom mofi dagvekarga? xuTSabaTs aqeT ukvalod gaqra, albaT didi xania katebis samoTxeSia da romelime `cxovelTa megobarma~ gemrielad Sesansla. an iqneb misi tyavisagan bavSvis qudi Sekeres. peteri Zalze damwuxrebulia.

SabaTs aqeT meored Tormetis naxevarze vsauzmobT. diliT erTi jami fafis meti araferi gvaqvs. ase rom, erTi ijra mogvaklda. bostneuli Zneli saSovaria. dRes gvqonda kolrabi, romelic cota Sempala. kolrabi, ispanaxi da salaTa, sxva araferi gagvaCnia. amas daumate uvargisi kartofili — SesaniSnavi Sexamebaa ara?!

or Tveze metia, `avad~ ar vyofilvar. SabaTs isev damewyo. Tumca es usiamo da uxerxulia, magram me mainc mixaria, rom yvelaferi ise mimdinareobs, rogorc saWiroa.

Sen ar gagiWirdeba imis gageba, rom CvenTan xSirad gaismis sasowarkveTilTa RaRadi: `ratom aris, ra saWiroa saerTod omi? ratom ar SeuZliaT adamianebs mSvidad cxovreba? vis sWirdeba? vis sWirdeba es saSineli gapartaxeba?~ TavisTavad kiTxvebi gasagebia, magram amomwuravi pasuxi aqamde jer aravis miuRia. marTlac, ratom uSveben ingliselebi uzarmazar TviTmfrinavebs, ratom akeTeben mZime yumbarebs da amave dros asawyob saxlebs dangreulTa aRsadgenad? ratom xarjaven yoveldRiurad milionebs omis saWiroebisaTvis, xolo medicinis, xelovnebisa da RaribebisaTvis erTi centic ar emetebaT? ratom unda SimSilobdnen erTgan, roca sxvagan sursaTi lpeba? ratom aris adamiani aseTi suleli?

ar mjera is ambavi, TiTqos omi mxolod xelmZRvaneli moRvaweebis, mTavrobebisa da kapitalistebis bralia. ara, albaT, patara adamianebic arian damnaSaveni, Torem mTeli xalxebi ar miiRebdnen omSi monawileobas, adamianSi, albaT, imTaviTve gamjdaria miswrafeba ngrevis, mkvlelobis, Cexvisa da mxecobisaken. sanam mTeli kacobrioba ar gardaiqmneba, arc omebi moispoba. yvelaferi, rac aSenda, Seiqmna, gaizarda, yvelaferi gaiTeleba, moispoba da kacobriobas yvelafris Tavidan dawyeba mouxdeba.