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21, 1952, according to the prison date stamp at the top, and passed on to Mac. The letter is preserved in the latter's scrapbook (along with Warden Dowd's article in Prison World, see above). Harold E. Stevens and his wife Pearl lived at 127 E. Marion, Apt. 316, in South Bend, Indiana, according to that town's city directory for 1943. Harry was listed there as a traveling salesman by occupation.
June 29th or July 13th. I regret that I'll be unable to attend. I have never been one, I hope, to seek glory or tributes for any help or service I may have given in A.A., and a meeting for that purpose would only be embarrassing to me. If, in the past, I have been of help to anyone in the prison group -- or anywhere else -- that fact alone is reward enough. I am happy and grateful for having been given such an opportunity.
decided to withdraw from the prison group because of my health and increasing business demands. At this time I would like to clarify this situation by explaining the actual reasons for my withdrawal. At the time of my withdrawal, I gave my reasons to Warden Dowd and Bob Heyne and am positive that I made no mention of health or business in my explanation. I also gave a letter to Walter Kelley in which I stated the same reasons and, at that time, I also mentioned that, healthwise, it was probably a good thing for me. My decision to withdraw was made when it became very obvious and evident that my sponsoring and services were no longer needed or required.
their heads out of the sand. Let's face facts, look at the record and then it will be clear as to why I decided to withdraw. In my opinion, things had become too involved and, under the trying circumstances, I thought it was best for me since, as an alcoholic, I cannot afford to repeatedly get upset.
several press releases out before the meeting, as well as having a lot of pictures taken at the time of the meeting. My thinking on this procedure was that A.A. neither needs nor benefits by this sort of publicity. Not wishing to act entirely on my own feeling in this matter, I discussed it with others who had many years of A.A. experience behind them and found they agreed with me. In turn, I called Warden Dowd and informed him that, unless the press releases were stopped and pictures banned, I would have no part of the meeting, other than to continue to get the invitations out and aid in getting visitors into the prison. I felt that I simply could not go along with all the publicity and "hullabaloo" that was building up. At that time the Warden seemed fully in accord with my thinking. However, he apparently deemed it necessary to further confer on the issue with Kelley or someone else and ultimately reversed his decision. During the past eight years, as the recognized A.A. sponsor of the prison group, I have always felt a great deal of a sense of obligation to the prison group, to the outside groups and to individual members. One of the prime objects of this feeling of obligation has been to protect the anonymity of the members I invited to the prison. Conscientiously, I feel that anonymity is of the utmost importance to many of us. Without it, A.A. may not survive. I must stand by my convictions and the traditions of A.A. as I understand them, even if, in so doing, I am forced to disagree with some of you.
judgment on the issue of publicity. Consequently, I felt my services were no longer wanted and there was little else to do but step aside in favor of someone whose judgment would be valued a little more. In the second paragraph of your letter, you mentioned that you all regretted that I had been unable in the past year, because of my health, to be as active in your A.A. group as previously -- that you have missed that outside contact so necessary to the life blood of te group. With the exception of the two months I spent in Arizona, I had been more active, due to the daily meetings, during the past year than ever before. I thought I had left the group in good hands and well taken care of at the time I went away. In fact, on my way to Arizona, I made it a point to stop at the prison to arrange for the changing of the time of the Sunday meetings from mornings to afternoons, in order to make it easier to get the Sunday visitors there. I would like to make the suggestion that you refrain from using the expression "outcasts of society." Since you have become associated with A.A., it seems that you have been exaggerating this subject and ultimately you and your fellow inmates will really begin to believe it a true expression. You will no doubt recall that you were gravely criticized at the sponsors' meeting for stating that no member of A.A. would be seen walking down the street with an ex-convict. They not only walk down the street with them, but many A.A.'s have seen fit to take ex-convicts into their homes to mingle with their families in order that the ex-convicts may regain confidence in themselves. This remark was greatly resented by those members who have gone "all out" for the discharged or paroled member. Frankly, we can't think of a single case where a released man, if he wanted A.A., was not treated with the greatest care. Even those of us who have been taken in financially would gladly do it over again, hoping that the next man would be the one who would make the grade.
don't believe anyone would have objections to that. However, outside of an impressive sounding name, it would seem to gain little more than you already have. Actually, all you have to do is give the man the name of the Secretary in the city to which he is going. If the discharged man makes the contact, he will, without a doubt, receive the help and guidance needed where his alcoholic problems are concerned. The rest is up to him. If I'm not mistaken, this procedure was followed long before you entered Michigan City. If this has not been the case, it's been due to neglect on the part of someone.
business, as it is a "must" with me and I cannot afford to relax with my A.A. activities. With kindest regards to all -- Sincerely, H. E. Stevens ================================================ IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII ++++Message 2070. . . . . . . . . . . . EARLY A.A. PRISON GROUP (1944), Part 6 of 6
From: Glenn Chesnut . . . . . . . . . . . . 11/20/2004 9:10:00 PM IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII EARLY A.A. PRISON GROUP (1944), Part 6 of 6, INDIANA STATE PRISON AT MICHIGAN CITY ================================================ LETTERS FROM BILL W. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Editor's note: In the Mackelfresh scrapbook (where the copy of Prison World and the Harry Stevens letter were preserved) there are also two letters and a note from Bill Wilson. In the first letter, Bill gives the planning of a Prison AA Conference his approval as an experiment. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ February 20, 1952 Mr. C. W. Mackelfresh, AA Secretary P.O. Box 41, Michigan City, Indiana Dear C. W., Thanks very much indeed for your cordial letter of February 7th, telling me of the very interesting proposal for the first Regional Prison AA Conference.
hope your outfit and the others will be able to go through with it. Of course, there is no reason in A.A. Tradition why you should not. Moreover, you really need never ask my permission in these things. After all, I am just a drunk trying to get along like the rest of you. As long as any action taken is reasonably within the framework of the Twelve Steps and the Twelve Traditions, please always feel free to experiment. As you may know, the principle of "trial and error" is a part of A.A., also. In this case, it seems to me you have everything to gain, nothing to lose. And, in this connection, please carry my best to Warden Dowd. He is but one more proof that A.A. could never have been, or functioned at all, without friends such as he.
have to take a raincheck. My next main job is that of serious writing. Excepting for a few pamphlets, the whole AA story and its lessons of the last twelve years has scarcely been put on paper at all. Though no greybeard, I'm not so young as I used to be. And most of my friends agree that I had better spend most of my time on this sort of thing for the next few years. This will, I am sorry to say, almost entirely prevent further traveling. Then there is also the long standing difficulty. If I were to make a special appearance at your Conference, I would get hundreds of prison and group invitations at once which I would be obliged to decline. Then the places I didn't visit would be disconsolate -- the alcoholic temperament, you know.
the time comes, if you will remind me, I shall be glad to send a word of greeting and best luck. Please carry my best to all my friends behind your walls. And take the same for yourself. Devotedly, Bill Wilson ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Editor's note: In a second letter, a month later, Bill W. seems still quite willing to send a letter of greeting, put something in the Grapevine about the conference, and so on.
of Alcoholics Anonymous Prison Groups. I'm so very glad the Grapevine is going to run such an account.
seems to me that I wrote Mr. Dowd well before the Conference date and gave him a greeting from me to be read. I truly hope that was the case.
good part of the world. Devotedly, Bill Wilson ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Editor's note: There eventually however seems to have been a reaction in New York to some of Dowd's ideas, though phrased more diplomatically than Harry Stevens' letter. Eve Lum, Secretary of the Alcoholic Foundation, sent a letter to Warden Dowd on September 10, 1952, praising the conference which Dowd had organized and the article in Prison World. Nevertheless, in the midst of this fulsome praise, New York headquarters also inserted a paragraph politely but clearly pointing out (1) that A.A. was pleased to continue cooperating with what Dowd was doing as long as it remained clear that there was no organizational relationship between A.A. and Dowd's own special programs, (2) that A.A. did not officially endorse Dowd's efforts, and (3) that what Dowd was doing had to be construed as falling outside the framework of the Twelve Traditions. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Letter from Eve Lum, Secretary of the Alcoholic Foundation Your complete understanding of our A.A. Traditions and the attendant appreciation of what we are equipped to do and what we cannot do, is gratifying indeed. For example, the new Indiana Fellowship of Alcoholic Prisoners, which in itself is such a tremendous stride forward, is properly launched when you state so vividly in the preamble: "The Fellowship is not related, nor is it endorsed, by Alcoholics Anonymous as a whole, and not necessarily by any A.A. group. It functions independently and in the same manner as any activity not coming within the framework of the A.A. Twelve Traditions." In this way we can stick to our primary purpose, that of helping the sick alcoholic recover through our Twelve suggested Steps and yet we can continue to cooperate with you whenever you feel that we can be helpful.
Editor's note: To help take the sting out of this backing away from Dowd's activities, Bill W. himself added a personal postscript. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Postscript from Bill Wilson Dear Warden Dowd, I'd like to enclose with Eve Lum's letter a further word in praise of the magnificent occasion that the First Regional Conference of A.A. Prison Groups was. After reading the accounts of it, I find myself more deeply impressed and moved than I have been in years. Which, my friend, is saying a great deal!
occasion a thing of such great moment. Devotedly yours, Bill ================================================ IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII ++++Message 2071. . . . . . . . . . . . Date of Bill W.''s Spiritual Experience From: Jim Burns . . . . . . . . . . . . 11/22/2004 12:32:00 PM
11th and being discharged on December 18. Is there a documented date in which Bill had his " white light" spiritual experience? Jim California ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you Yahoo!? Meet the all-new My Yahoo! [112] - Try it today!
From: chris fuccione . . . . . . . . . . . . 11/22/2004 1:21:00 PM IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII Hi Can anyone provide the publishing history of the AA service piece "Fellowships Similar To A.A."? I have it dated back to January 1986. I was wondering if it went back further and any other infomation on the development of it. Thanks Chris F.
++++Message 2073. . . . . . . . . . . . Re: Date of Bill W.''s Spiritual Experience From: Arthur Sheehan . . . . . . . . . . . . 11/23/2004 1:29:00 AM
morning, the fourteenth of December, I think, Ebby appeared in the doorway of my room ..." This book also provides the most elaborate description of Bill's experience. I checked several other books but Bill's autobiography is the only one I found that offers a date. Cheers Arthur
From: Jim Burns To: AAHistoryLovers@yahoogroups.com Sent: Monday, November 22, 2004 11:32 AM Subject: [AAHistoryLovers] Date of Bill W.'s Spiritual Experience "Pass it On," refers to Bill entering Towns for the last time on December 11th and being discharged on December 18. Is there a documented date in which Bill had his " white light" spiritual experience? Jim California ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Do you Yahoo!? Meet the all-new My Yahoo! [112] - Try it today!
Experience From: Tom Hickcox . . . . . . . . . . . . 11/25/2004 12:33:00 AM
W. titled "12 Steps in 30 Minutes." The following is from it:
Charles B. Towns Hospital, that famous drying-out emporium on Central Park West, New York City. I'd been there before,
friend Ebbie carried to me the spiritual principles and the grace which brought on my sudden spiritual awakening at the hospital three days later. I immediately knew that I was a free man. Three days later than Dec. 11th would be Dec. 14th and affirm the date Arthur Sheehan reported. Tommy in Baton Rouge At 00:29 11/23/2004 , Arthur Sheehan wrote: Hi Jim In his autobiography "Bill W My First 40 Years" (pg 141) Bill states "One morning, the fourteenth of December, I think, Ebby appeared in the doorway of my room ..." This book also provides the most elaborate description of Bill's experience. I checked several other books but Bill's autobiography is the only one I found that offers a date. Cheers Arthur ----- Original Message ----- From: Jim Burns To: AAHistoryLovers@yahoogroups.com Sent: Monday, November 22, 2004 11:32 AM Subject: [AAHistoryLovers] Date of Bill W.'s Spiritual Experience
time on December 11th and being discharged on December 18. Is there a documented date in which Bill had his " white light" spiritual experience? Jim California Do you Yahoo!? Meet the all-new My Yahoo! [112] - Try it today! Yahoo! Groups Sponsor ADVERTISEMENT ------------------------------------------------------------ Yahoo! Groups Links · To visit your group on the web, go to: · http://groups.yahoo.com/group/AAHistoryLovers/ · · To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: · AAHistoryLovers-unsubscribe@yahoogroups.com · · Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the Yahoo! Terms of Service [1] . IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII ++++Message 2075. . . . . . . . . . . . Early Black AA -- Part 1 of 5 From: Glenn Chesnut . . . . . . . . . . . . 11/30/2004 10:58:00 PM IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII Early Black AA -- Part 1 of 5 EARLY BLACK A.A. ALONG THE CHICAGO--GARY--SOUTH BEND AXIS The Stories and Memories of Early Black Leaders Told in Their Own Words Editor's introduction: Some of the earliest black A.A. groups in the United States were formed c. 1945-48 along an axis running from Chicago eastward through Gary to South Bend, Indiana. These three cities were linked by an interurban rail line called the South Shore Railroad which made it easy for people to travel back and forth. We know much more at present about early black A.A. in this area than we do about any other part of the United States.
published by the Archives Committee of Northern Indiana Area 22 of Alcoholics Anonymous, and printed in South Bend (contact the Michiana A.A. Central Service Office, 814 E. Jefferson Ave., South Bend, IN 46617). For further background information: Detailed material about four of the early black A.A. leaders who played a role in this story (Bill Hoover, Jimmy Miller, Brownie and Goshen Bill) can be found in the two-volume series on Lives and Teachings of the A.A. Old Timers in the St. Joseph valley region (northwestern Indiana and southwestern Michigan) put together by Glenn C. (South Bend, Indiana) in 1993-96. This work is due to come out in a second edition at the beginning of 2005, with the two volumes entitled The Factory Owner & the Convict and The St. Louis Gambler & the Railroad Man. Check the http://hindsfoot.org website in January or February 2005 (or the online bookstores) for further information. =================================== INTERVIEW WITH BILL WILLIAMS EVANS AVENUE A.A. GROUP IN CHICAGO ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ EDITOR'S NOTE: On Saturday, July 17, 1999, three people came from Chicago -- Evans Avenue Bill W. (recently turned ninety-six years old), Jimmy H., and a younger man -- and met at the lakeside home of Frank N. a few miles south of Syracuse, Indiana, a little before lunch time, along with two people from South Bend: Glenn C. and Raymond I., who had arrived a little earlier and had been sitting outside enjoying the serenity of the lake, and watching a family of Canadian geese paddling around the edges. This is the story of early black A.A. Frank and Glenn were the only two white people there, present simply to tape record the conversations.
his early years in East Texas. He eventually ended up in Chicago, where he came into A.A. in 1945, when he was around forty-one years old. At the time of this recording (transcribed below), he had just turned ninety-six. Fifty years earlier, in 1948 and 1949, he had helped the two earliest black members of A.A. in South Bend, Bill Hoover and a woman named Jimmy Miller, at the time when the A.A. program was just getting established in that town.
frequently travels to various parts of northern Indiana to give leads. Two weeks earlier he had been one of the featured speakers at the Fourth of July hog roast at Chic L.'s farm along the Elkhart River outside of Goshen, Indiana -- a major annual event which often draws almost a thousand people, traveling from as far away as Ohio to eat, chat, play horseshoes, go on hayrides, and so on.
A.A. meetings in 1974 and had been extremely close with the first two black people to enter the A.A. fellowship in South Bend, Bill Hoover and his wife Jimmy Miller. Bill Hoover became his sponsor in 1975. Most people in South Bend A.A. know Raymond, who is the "elder statesman" at Brownie's at 616 Pierce Street, just off Portage Avenue near downtown South Bend. Brownie's (named after one of the other major black leaders in early South Bend A.A.) is the basement meeting room below a children's daycare center, where numerous A.A. meetings are held every week.
after talking with Jimmy at Chic's hog roast. Frank had come to the event to socialize and enjoy, along with three other members of the Indiana Area 22 Archives Committee -- Floyd P. (Frankton), Klaus K. (Fort Wayne), and Glenn C. (South Bend) -- when he suddenly realized that the elderly Bill W. whom Jimmy was talking about was the same man who had come to South Bend to speak fifty years ago to help get the first black A.A. members in South Bend fully accepted. Glenn C. (South Bend, Indiana) came along to help Frank tape record and edit the information which Bill Williams and Jimmy H. were going to provide. When the group was all assembled, everyone sat down in a room with large glass windows looking out over the lake. Frank had trays of cheese and cold cuts and vegetables out on his dining room table, and asked who wanted coffee or a soft drink or something else. Jimmy H., who is a vegetarian and studiously avoids being around cigarette smoke, said he would just fix himself some hot water, while Bill W. asked if Frank could give him a cup of hot tea.
read from a transcript of Jimmy Miller's story, and then asked Bill Williams what he himself remembered about those events. Now some background needs to be given here: the first A.A. group in north central Indiana was founded in South Bend on February 22, 1943, by Ken Merrill and Joseph Soulard "Soo" Cates, and quickly began spreading into the surrounding parts of Indiana and Michigan, but it remained a totally white organization until 1948, when two black people in South Bend, Bill Hoover (who died in 1986) and Jimmy Miller (an erect, impressive black woman who was still living at the time of this meeting) asked for help. =================================== JIMMY MILLER'S STORY THE FIRST LADY OF BLACK A.A. IN THE ST. JOSEPH RIVER VALLEY ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ EDITOR'S NOTE: Jimmy Miller (South Bend, Indiana) was born in Wayne, Arkansas, in 1920, but her family moved to South Bend when she was only three months old, so she is essentially a South Bend person. In March of 1993, Raymond I. arranged for Glenn C. to go over to Jimmy Miller's house and tape record some of her reminiscences for the A.A. archives, including the story of how she and Bill Hoover (South Bend, Indiana) became the firs two black A.A. members in that part of Indiana. After they came into the fellowship, Bill and Jimmy eventually got married, so Jimmy was able to talk at length about Bill's A.A. career as well as hers. She died around two or three years ago, so we can give her full name now. (This entire conversation is transcribed in Glenn C., The Factory Owner & the Convict, which is due to come out in a second edition in early 2005, see http://hindsfoot.org) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ JIMMY MILLER: I was a periodic drinker. Very much so. When I went out, I stuck to my 7-Up, my Coke. I drank at home. I was a loner. If I had a week's vacation from a job, I stayed drunk that whole week. I mean drunk! -- go into D.T's, had to go to the doctor. We had an alcoholic doctor .... I found out about this doctor, and I'd go get a shot, and I'm all right. But I ... that was my pattern. Maybe I would go a year without a drink, because I knew better, because then I would be drunk anywhere from one week to two weeks. But I would make sure it was during my vacation -- never lost a job, never got into financial trouble, no kind of way. But then I knew I had this time to stay drunk. RAYMOND: It's cunning, it's baffling, and it's powerful. JIMMY MILLER: But I knew I'd get drunk, because I know there was something wrong. The reason I didn't drink when I'd get out, go out: I knew better. I was going to get drunk! I knew that I would be clear drunk for at least a week, so I had to plan these things. And I used to tell my mother, that I knew better. She said, "Oh honey, you don't need no help. You just drink sometimes." So she would go and get, like, get the neighbor to go get me two or three pints of whiskey, and I'm quite young, maybe seventeen, sixteen, and when I started drinking she would hand me a pint. I'd go on up to my room. She'd check on me, or she'd bring me soup to eat. And I said, "Mama, I've got to be an alcoholic." And she said, "Naw, my baby gone stop one day." But she was ....
do.
go to drink me a fifth of vodka, it was just coming out [on the American market]. So I drunk this fifth, I was working at the cleaners. I blundered at work that morning, the temperature was about 115 [degrees Fahrenheit] in there. I worked for a solid week, without anything on my stomach but a drink of water. I'd get off from work, I'd make it as far as getting on the floor and I would stretch out. It almost killed me. I didn't have no more afterwards. But like Ray Moore say [he was an Irishman, who became Jimmy and Bill's sponsor when they came into A.A.], he was surprised by me being a periodic drinker. To know that I was an alcoholic. And you know, then I went to send and get all this literature. I was ecstatic at something. Then I couldn't get into A.A. EDITOR'S NOTE: Jimmy made a phone call to the A.A. number in South Bend, but this was 1948, and she was told bluntly over the telephone that Alcoholics Anonymous was for white people only. However, unknown to her, Bill Hoover (who was also black) had also called the South Bend A.A. number about the same time, so a certain amount of soul searching had begun among a few of the A.A. leaders. Jimmy did not know that Bill had also phoned the A.A. number, but she did know who Bill was.
was strong alcoholics, so they was running buddies. They used to just say, "Mama, I'm going to sleep on the porch" (in them days you slept on the porch) and him and Bill would drink all night long. You know, I had known Bill for years, never thinking that we would ever marry.
have any set up for colored people (that's what we were called) .... [first Bill phoned them for help, and then] I called in, and they also told me they didn't have any setup for "colored people." And at the time that Bill called in, Ray Moore was there, and he heard this remark -- they didn't have anything for colored people -- so he said, "That's all right, I'll take it." So they tried to discourage him, but anyway, he made the call on Bill. Three days later I called in, so he brought Bill over to my house, and he said, well he would sponsor us. Only they told him -- they didn't have any set up for colored whatsoever -- we couldn't come to the open meetings or the closed meetings, so Ray had brought two of his friends with him. GLENN C.: He was an Irishman? JIMMY MILLER: Uh-huh. Dunbar [came with him], and the other one was Ken Merrill. So in the meantime, they decided we could meet from house to house, so we met at my house, Bill's house, [and at the homes of] Ken Merrill and Dunbar.
convinced that it was not simply coincidence, but the power of God at work, that made these two particular people -- Jimmy and Bill -- call into A.A. at the same time. And Bill Hoover was convinced that it was the power of God at work that made Ray Moore, an otherwise perfectly ordinary Irishman who had a job at the Bendix plant, insist on making the twelfth step call on these two black people in spite of the stiff opposition from within the A.A. group itself.
From: Glenn Chesnut . . . . . . . . . . . . 11/30/2004 11:11:00 PM IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII Early Black AA -- Part 2 of 5 JIMMY MILLER: When Ray Moore called on me, he was really surprised that I [already] had the ... Alcoholic Anonymous book. I was determined. He say two or more, but it's just a coincidence the way Bill and I called in.
slip. I said, not really. 'Cause after Ray Moore called on him that evening, he drank the next day, and never had a drink since. So you really -- I couldn't even call that a slip, could you? He called on him that day, he didn't know enough about the program -- bad handled -- so he drank that night, never no more! Said he was just determined. We really went through a lot .... I said, well you couldn't really call that a slip, because the man just come over and talked to you, you didn't know anything about the program. But I came in thinking I knew quite a bit -- which I did, 'cause I had read the Big Book. I read any and everything! Like my Grapevines [the A.A. periodical]. I run through 'em, and then I put 'em right here, and I read 'em over. EDITOR'S NOTE: Getting someone in the South Bend A.A. group to make a twelfth step call was only the first of many barriers that would have to be surmounted. Ray Moore -- who has been dead for many years now, Jimmy said -- continued to come through for her and Bill, and served as their sponsor during those earliest years, hearing their fifth steps, and advising and counseling and supporting them and fighting for them every step of the way.
on which help was offered them by the South Bend A.A. group at first was incredibly humiliating and demeaning, in often unbelievably petty ways. The closed meetings were still normally house meetings in those days, and when Jimmy and Bill went to one of the few white homes where they would be admitted at all, they were promptly sent back to the kitchen like household menials, and could hear only as much of the people speaking as would travel back to that distant part of the house. JIMMY MILLER: So when Bill would walk it, they would invite us into the kitchen. The women took time to give us some broken cups! And they decided to give us broken cups, so we just took it. Ray told us, no matter what, be calm about it, so we sit in the kitchen, where we could hear from the family room, living room, whatever.
Brown) came into the South Bend A.A. program, he said that he, as a black man, was also at first given the broken-cup treatment when he went to A.A. meetings at white people's homes. (This is taken from a tape recording of a lead he gave around 1972.)
meeting in the homes at that time. I had to drink coffee out of a broken cup because they refused to give me a decent cup! Yes, I've sat in some of'em's homes, where they put their finger in their nose at me, then they buck at me. In other words, want me to get out of there.
had. I was trying to get sober. All I wanted to do was to learn it. They couldn't run me away. The rest of 'em were behind me pushing, saying "Brown, push on!" and they kept pushing me, and I kept going. It's to say, oh, look it! It wasn't easy for me to make the A.A. program.
open the door, I get it myself. And I begin to study this A.A. program. And when I mean study it, I know it. I don't need you to tell me about it. I knows everything, in the steps and everything, what it says. And they told me that this was a spiritually program. Well now, if this is a spiritually program, ain't got no business being prejudiced. My God tells me, "I have no respect for persons." Alcohol ain't prejudiced. It don't give a damn who it tear down. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ EDITOR'S NOTE: So the tales of black people being given only the chipped and cracked coffee cups to drink from in early South Bend A.A. are amply documented, as embarrassing as this fact is to many present-day white A.A. members in this area. But to get back to Jimmy Miller and her story: Although Jimmy and Bill Hoover were allowed to attend closed A.A. house meetings as long as they could tolerate this deeply offensive treatment, it was six or seven months before the white members would allow them to go to open meetings at all. Even then, it was not until two black A.A. members from Chicago came over to South Bend to give leads at the South Bend open meeting on several occasions, that the black people in the South Bend A.A. program began to be treated with at least a measure of ordinary social respect. The two black A.A.'s from Chicago were Earl Redmond and Evans Avenue Bill W. (Bill Williams), so being able to record some of Bill's memories of those long ago events was a special privilege for the two members of the Area 22 Archives Committee. JIMMY MILLER: So then, we still couldn't go to an open meeting. So we just kept meeting, and then, one or two more blacks called, and we met that way, and then Ray got real worried, and Bill's wife [at that time] called her cousin in Chicago: Earl Redmond. So Ray had a hard time getting permission for him to speak at an open meeting ....
when he finished talking -- now this is a good six, seven months later -- they opened up, and said we could come to an open meeting.
and learn, and that's the way. And after we got about five more blacks . . . . that's the way the group got started.
several of the speakers, we tried to shake their hands, and they would just turn and walk off -- [but] after Earl Redmond come down about three times, then they started shaking hands. Hey Raymond, what's the other gentleman, Bill's other cousin in Chicago? RAYMOND: [Evans Avenue] Bill Williams. JIMMY MILLER: Bill Williams, he come down, and after he made a talk it really opened up for us. RAYMOND: Fourth black man to make A.A. in Chicago. JIMMY MILLER: And I'm telling you! But we held on. RAYMOND: Do you remember being at the talk, that Earl Redmond made, to help you all get in? JIMMY MILLER: Yes I do. He said, you know, this was basically formed: no race, creed, religion, or anything. And then if you read it out the Big Book, it's all [a matter of] if you had the desire to stop drinking, that's all that's required. =================================== RACE RELATIONS IN THE NORTHERN UNITED STATES During the 1930's and 40's and afterwards Any black person in South Bend old enough to remember the world before Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. will tell you that the humiliating treatment given to Jimmy and Bill at first was simply typical of the period, and that such treatment was a daily part of every black person's life. Many white people in the United States to this day believe that racial discrimination against black people only happens in the southern states, but every black person I have ever talked to who has lived in both parts of the country, has told me that racial discrimination is equally bad in both north and south. All of my own observation of life in the north (Chicago, the upper Midwest, Massachusetts, New York City, and so on) shows that they are totally correct. Black people who began leaving the south to live in northern cities around the mid twentieth century moved because that is where the jobs were, in the factories and foundries, not because there was less prejudice there, or any less likelihood of being beaten or killed by white people.
the first black men and women came into A.A. in Chicago and South Bend (which was around 1945-48). Dr. King's first major protest was the Montgomery bus boycott of 1955. This took place in the south, in Alabama, as did the major integration campaign he carried out later on in Birmingham, in 1963. It was only after this that Dr. King went north to work in Chicago, where his marchers were met by white mobs led by uniformed Neo-Nazis and Ku Klux Klansmen, in an even more violent and vicious opposition than he had encountered in the south. When King was assassinated on April 4, 1968, it could be argued that Chicago still stood as a partial failure for him: that city had proven to be far more resistant than the cities of the American south to truly basic change in racial attitudes at the public and political level.
twenty years ahead of the world outside of them on racial issues: getting black people into some of the closed meetings (on any terms) was a miracle for the 1940's, and getting them into the open meetings was a further miracle, and putting an end to at least some of the discriminatory treatment was yet another miracle. Young people today often do not realize (until they look back at how bad things were in the 1930's and early 40's) how much was actually accomplished in eliminating the worst kinds of racism in A.A. in the years which followed, and how difficult it was to bring this about. It was done by attacking the issues at the fundamental spiritual level, and by insisting that the spiritual principles of the program had to take precedence over personalities, and personal likes and dislikes, and politics, and blind cultural taboos. It also took a handful of people, both black and white, who had an astonishing courage, and a willingness to speak lovingly, but boldly and honestly, when basic spiritual principles were at stake. =================================== BACK TO JIMMY MILLER'S STORY EDITOR: But to return to Jimmy's story. At one point, Raymond asked her what she remembered of some of the details of that open meeting where Earl Redmond, the first black speaker the South Bend A.A. group had ever had, came over from Chicago. RAYMOND: Well 'd Ken Merrill play the piano or something -- didn't he play the piano for you all? JIMMY MILLER: Yeah. RAYMOND: And ... I mean when Earl Redmond and them came in? JIMMY MILLER: Yes. But Ken .... RAYMOND: And I think Earl Redmond made a statement like Bill [Hoover] used to tell me, said when Earl came down he made such a powerful talk. He said the same whiskey that'll make a white man drunk, will make a black man drunk.
-- it kept everybody spellbound. And it opened the doors for us.
From: Glenn Chesnut . . . . . . . . . . . . 11/30/2004 11:22:00 PM IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII Early Black AA -- Part 3 of 5 =================================== KEN MERRILL PLAYS THE PIANO Celebrating a victory over racism Ken Merrill (the founder of A.A. in South Bend) opened the meeting in a way that had never been done before, by sitting down and playing the piano for all the people who were assembled. This was one of Ken's more unexpected talents: he had been a professional church organist for part of his life, and (on a piano) could play everything from the latest jazz to truly difficult classical pieces, almost totally by ear. Raymond commented later on in this recording that this symbolic gesture was a way for some of the white people in South Bend A.A. to begin making amends for the wrong they had done to the black members, and to extend the olive branch of peace by turning this first visit by a black speaker into a day of jubilee, if you wish. It was something special offered by the white people who were leading that meeting, to show that they too now realized that this was a very special welcoming, where they wanted to pull out all the stops and do something far beyond the ordinary for this meeting. Earl Redmond did his job too. Soon everyone in the room found themselves swept into the power and sincerity of his lead. And the white people discovered that, once you stopped making external comparisons and started listening to the message of the heart, black alcoholics suffered and felt exactly the same things as white alcoholics, but could also use the twelve steps to live in and through God's power to arrive at the same sobriety and serenity that some of the white people were beginning to achieve.
the South Bend open meeting, the effect (as Jimmy Miller remembered it) was even more powerful. So being able to actually listen to Bill himself talking about his memories of his part in those same events is a special treat, because (although he was now 96 years old) he still remembered clearly his trips to South Bend some fifty years earlier. =================================== BILL WILLIAMS' STORY COMING FROM CHICAGO TO SPEAK TO THE WHITE A.A.'s IN SOUTH BEND EDITOR'S NOTE: Glenn C. read aloud from the preceding transcript of Jimmy Miller's story, and then asked Evans Avenue Bill W. (Bill Williams) if he could tell all of us some of his own memories of those events.
remember anything about that at all? BILL WILLIAMS: Uh huh. I remember it all. Most of that. Not all of it, but most of that. See, that was the problem, that's the reason I came over here, at the time. See, happened my wife was related to Bill [Hoover]'s, some of Bill's family, and they had told her about it, told them about it. So I came over here. I came over here, I brought four other members from my group, over here from Chicago. Myself -- see, this all happened before some of that, what you was reading, was happening. See, at the time, Bill couldn't go to the meetings. He could go to some of the meetings, but especially he couldn't go to the open meetings. And I came.
I met Bill. I didn't know him before. So with about five of the members of my group, we came over here one Sunday, and talked at Bill [Hoover]'s house [at 1242 Howard St. in South Bend]. And after we met, that's [when] they told him it's all right, but you can't go to the big meeting, on a Sunday. So then I asked why. Then they begin telling, "Well you see, our wives wouldn't like that."
said, "if I had to go to Chicago from here in the morning -- I lived here, I got to go to Chicago. Wasn't but one train go, one bus go to Chicago, and I had to be there. And if I was on the train, and you got on ... because I was on there, and I was black, you wouldn't get off! Because you had to go to Chicago too." I said, "By the same token, if I go to the meeting, your wife cares less than a damn about me. She's there interested in you. So she's not gone go leave the meeting because I come. Because I'm going there for a purpose, and she's there to help you."
going to leave -- it's an open meeting -- because she cares less than a darn about me. She's there for interested in you. And she's not gone leave because I get here. So if Bill [Hoover] goes to that meeting, it's not gonna affect your meeting at all. Cause all of you are going there -- all the alcoholics -- are going there for one particular purpose, and the non-alcoholic -- her husband, his wife -- is going there on account of you ...."
[you]. She would only be there because she's interested in me, and she want to find out what makes me tick. So when I got through -- see, before -- before that, they didn't want Bill [Hoover] to come to the open meeting. Well, I knew the reason. I'm from Texas, and I know the reason.
to the meeting. Say, all right, say right now [pointing to the only empty chair in Frank's lakeside room]: it's only one chair sit here now. If I'm sitting right there, and this man is sitting here -- black -- your wife come in, that's the only seat. She's gone sit down there. She ain't gone leave because she just got her one seat, cause she's interested in you. She cares less than a doggoned about me. It was only him."
chair close to me .... I can understand that. I know that .... But that isn't the point .... The point is that we're all here for one particular purpose. The alcoholics are here to mend their alcoholism. Your wife is here to learn what makes me tick."
They don't know that alcohol makes us THIRSTY. [Laughter] Now this tea -- see, this tea -- it quenches my thirst. See, I drank this, and this'll be about all I want. I might would like another cup an hour or so from now .... but you see, it quenches my thirst. But if this was alcohol -- and I am an alcoholic -- it makes me thirsty. GLENN: For more. BILL WILLIAMS: .... See, when Hoover came in, the fellows would go over to his house and talk, but they didn't want him, or none of us, to come to the open meeting .... They said, "We'll come to your house to the meeting, but you can't come to .... they was meeting in the church. Raymond, are they still meeting in that church? And anyways, they were meeting in the church -- that was an open meeting, where the husbands and wives were there. They didn't want them to come there, and they come and talking about, "Well, you see our wives gone to complain." I listened, to a while, until they begin to do things to me inside. I said,"Listen, let me tell you something, you further something ...." =================================== SOUTH BEND A.A. IN THE 1940's AND THE OPEN MEETING AT ST. JAMES CATHEDRAL ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ EDITOR'S NOTE: Let us interrupt Bill Williams at this point to talk about South Bend A.A. (which was started on February 22, 1943) and the big weekly open meeting they were holding in St. James Cathedral by 1948. It will also be wise, for the sake of younger people, to describe some of the primitive racial taboos in the United States in the 1940's.
anniversary of the A.A. movement in that city) explains how the site of the big weekly open meeting was moved around during that twenty-one years. Beginning in October 1943, they held them for a while as occasional breakfast sessions at the LaSalle Hotel, which was at that point one of the city's two major hotels, located on Michigan Street in downtown South Bend. Late in 1944 however, they turned it into a regular Sunday afternoon meeting held at the former South Bend Civic Planning Association building on East Madison Street. Late in 1945, they set up the first Alano Club in the basement of that building. People were already coming from all over the surrounding areas of northern Indiana and southern Michigan -- places like Mishawaka, Elkhart, Goshen, Plymouth, LaPorte, Niles, Dowagiac, Benton Harbor, and St. Joseph -- learning how to set up an A.A. program from the people in South Bend, and then going back and setting up similar groups in their own home towns. So South Bend's example in dealing with problems like this one had an impact that extended far beyond its own city limits, up and down the St. Joseph river valley and around the southeastern coast of Lake Michigan (one of the five Great Lakes which divide the United States from Canada).
sometime between 1946 and 1948 -- they moved the big weekly open meetings from the Madison Street building to St. James Episcopal Cathedral on Main Street in downtown South Bend, where they used the meeting room in the church basement for their weekly get together. Ken Merrill, the factory owner who was the founder of A.A. in South Bend, was a member of that church, and presumably used his influence to help secure this site.
school in Chicago for fighting, he educated himself past that point, and not only rose to become the president and co-owner of a very successful factory operation in South Bend, but also was a highly talented musician, and wrote short stories which appeared in the major national magazines of the period. His factory produced industrial pipe fittings which were sold all over the world, including the British Isles and France. He was a church goer, but he was typical of that branch of early A.A. which emphasized the psychological aspects of the program. For more about his life and his interpretation of the program -- people came from cities and towns many miles away to hear his beginners lessons on the steps -- see The Factory Owner & the Convict.)
meeting dates from this point when it started being held in the basement of St. James Cathedral. This is where the Anglican (Episcopalian) bishop for that part of Indiana presides. It is a small but quite beautiful Gothic style church where you can easily imagine you are back in a rather high church setting in old England: in the main sanctuary, which has a quiet, medieval Catholic feeling, the bishop dons his miter and ceremonial robes to preside over mass, while the choir chants the ritual and clouds of incense billows from burning censers. They have the Stations of the Cross on the walls, and people cross themselves with holy water on entering the sanctuary and genuflect before taking their seat in one of the pews.
although the ceiling is fairly low, the room is quite large and can hold a large number of people on folding chairs, arranged around long tables or however one wishes. This basement room was the site of the weekly open meeting which was now the point of controversy: some of the white A.A.'s did not want Bill Hoover, Jimmy M., or any other black people coming to that gathering.
set of strange taboos that still dominated racial relations in the United States back in the 1940's, a set of deeply felt but primitive and irrational superstitions which operated somewhat like the rules of the caste system in ancient India. In the north, it was not formalized in the way of the American south, with signs posted indicating separate drinking fountains for black and white people, separate waiting rooms in train and bus stations, and so on, but many white people still felt this to a degree down at a visceral level. This taboo applied both to eating and drinking from the same cups and plates and glasses, and sitting in chairs right next to one another. Bill was also aware of the bizarre myth, believed by many whites in both north and south, that all black men continually lust in their hearts after white women. This sexual myth was embarrassing to talk about openly, but it was not only nonsense, it was dangerous nonsense -- the fuel that had fed more than one anti-black lynch mob.
black and white A.A.'s gathered in Bill Hoover's house bring these taboos and myths out into the open, and discuss them in the light of the spirit, and in terms of the basic principles of the program. They could not "talk around" the real issues forever, and ever hope to heal any of the wrongs that were being done. =================================== IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII ++++Message 2078. . . . . . . . . . . . Part 4 of 5 From: Glenn Chesnut . . . . . . . . . . . . 11/30/2004 11:44:00 PM IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII Yüklə 1,35 Mb. Dostları ilə paylaş:
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